I blog when I don't have time

Few more weeks of uni, and that's it. I remember myself posting on facebook saying 'one more semester to go and that's it', and now, it's just a few weeks left.

Oh no. The thought of graduating and starting to work is quite scary to me at the moment. For me, it is a time when I am FULLY independent, I feel as though there is a massive burden being put on me. Being the youngest in the family, I think I have been receiving a lot of attention and pampering from my parents. And now, WHAT? The little girl of the Thiam family is going to graduate soon! Even so, I am really looking forward to my graduation in July, and both my parents and my brother are coming to the UK. I can't wait for the day to come. It's a shame that one of my best friends in Manchester has already graduated last year.

Anyway, I have been busy with my dissertation, and I should be writing my report now. As usual, I only started writing up a few days ago, and I need to write at least 5 pages a day from now on.

Flora, you never learn.

It's the thought that counts

Monday, a long day. I've been up since 9am. That's not early I know, but that's only 4 hours of sleep as I went to bed at 5am. Why? I have been working on my research proposal. I have been trying hard to stay focused but my brain efficiency is extremely low. I couldn't believe the fact that I had only written 4 paragraphs.

The three-hour lecture for waste water treatment engineering is what makes Mondays so unbearable. The lecturer is alright, it's the content that makes it so awful and miserable for me.

Busy busy busy. I have been really sleep-deprived recently. Three more weeks of this kind of life. Anyway, my dear got me a big box of Ferrero Rocher to cheer me up. Something small, but it's the thought that counts!

Birthday . 爱一直存在

Yes, it's my birthday today.

No big celebration as everyone is really busy rushing for deadlines. I didn't even have the time to think about my birthday, not to mention to plan for a celebration. But definitely, we are going for PARTAYYY after all the submissions! Just wait for us, 3rd December!

It's a very special birthday to me. The birthday wishes on facebook really made my day and reminded me of how loved I am. Thank God for the family and my loved ones and the lovely friends in my life. I feel really blessed. Thanks to facebook for making me feel so loved at least once a year!

Despite all the stress and work on my birthday, this is the most special birthday I've ever had in my whole life, emotionally, and I know why. The reason is simple. Love, it is, from someone, the only one, the really special one to me.

This post is to remind myself how loved I am.

Reading week... not

For the first time in my uni life, I went to the uni to get some work done during reading week.

For the first time in my uni life, I didn't step foot into the city even once during reading week. Not for food, no shopping.

For the first time in my uni life, I went to the library during reading week.

For the first time in my uni life, I stayed to work at the computer cluster until 5.30pm.

In short, fourth year sucks.

Yeah, it's shit.

Insomnia

I went to bed at about 2am last night after getting the materials ready for EBL, but I couldn't fall asleep. I know that I was still wide awake at about 3am, and I woke up a few times during the night. When I woke up, I felt like I hadn't slept at all.

Life has been haywire. So much to do, so little time. 5 deadlines, so much to read, so many tutorial problems to do, and there is this programming thing that I have to learn before I can write programs to solve Mathematical problems. Fourth year --> tough.

I know I had been complaining about the weather in Manchester lately. It's now abnormal. Abnormal to Manchester means sunny or no rain. It feels a bit weird to be back in Manchester this year. Some of my closest friends have already graduated and left Manchester. It's such a shame that we can't graduate together.

I don't think I am ready to start working yet.